I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know the questions to ask and can easily feel uncomfortable around my black friends and neighbors. I care and hurt for my community. I want people to know that I care. I’m tempted to change my social account pictures because I deeply care, but have been largely silent. I want to protest, but that feels inauthentic as I haven’t had a proactive voice. I’m scared that I’m going to forget about this after the fires burn out — that I’m going to go back to ‘normal.’ I’ve felt justified in my silence because I’m not ‘racist,’ and I love and respect my black brothers and sisters, but feel like none of that matters right now and certainly won’t matter in the future.